I’m conscious I’ve not contributed to my blog for 4 months now. The reason being I’ve been struggling. Driving 200 miles weekly each way for work and living in a caravan in Cumbria on my own have really been taking its toll. That coupled with selling and buying a house has given extra added stress.
But this isn’t going to be a negative post. Fore, I had to pull out of the 70.3 half iron I was scheduled to race. I just had too much going on. I could feel my head was at serious risk of going pop! Pulling out of the race was really difficult as I felt I was letting my friends down, but I needed to do what was right for my mind. This decision was positive for me as I’d usually just push on and damage my mind.
I’ve just had 10 days in the Austrian Alps with Christian and his children having the most wholesome adventures. Some beer was drank and lots of food was eaten. Sharing a Ski Chalet it was eye opening how ‘active’ families live.
I’m writing this on the plane back from Austria. I really feel like I have a red pill/blue pill moment. I have a decision to make. It isn’t about iron man triathlons, this is about being about to see my grandchildren mature. I am dangerously out of shape and overweight now. My diabetes is erratic at best. But I’m not focussing on the negative, I actually feel mentally really strong. Strong enough to admit this and strong enough to do something about it!
For 12 months I’ve been doing Pilates with Emily, but she cannot come with me to Ulverston each week. So I’ve been talking with Zoe about doing some more stuff together for strength and conditioning. My knee is healing and getting a lot better, I’ve been told to rest it for a few months and no running until I’ve lost weight.
So next week I start over. But this time it’s about losing weight and eating better…. I’ve assembled a team to support.
Nutritionist – Marta Zaremba-Marsden
Triathlon Coach – Hilary Johnson
Strength and Conditioning – Zoe Godfrey
127KG current weight. Peak weight 140KG.
Bipolar Ironman 