The end of downtime

So the past few months I’ve been bumbling along, still training, but not taking it as serious as I ought to be. This lad to some self evaluation about what I really want. Do I want to finish this? Do I REALLY have what it takes.

On the 19th Sept I volunteered to Marshall for the Etwall Triathlon. Watching our friends race gave me a burning feeling inside. I really wanted to be taking part. However I really do need to change the seriousness of which I take it. Since last September something has been missing. I don’t know what it is.

The past few months I’ve also been training with Team Huub. The feeling of ‘wanting this’ is coming back. I’ve also been developing a relationship with the head coach at Team Huub, Hilary, and have had a lot of help and support from her particularly the past few weeks.

I should have done a half Ironman at Outlaw X last weekend. It didn’t upset me seeing the results come in from my friends. It had the opposite effect. It spurred me on. In August, while having a difficult time I took the decision to pull out of the event. I’m glad I did now. For I can see what I have to do.

So December 31 is my self imposed deadline. I am going to go through to then with no alcohol and clean living. I know I can do it, I did it for 9 months last year. What I’ve been missing is the firecracker up my behind to push me on.

I hadn’t told anybody I was going to enter Venice Ironman 22’ but I have been thinking about it for a long time if truth be told. A few weeks ago I made the decision to pull out of races, I was doing it because I didn’t want the pressure. Well, guess what. I need the pressure to push me on it turns out. In the space of one hour I booked a car, plane and Airbnb. GAMETIME.

For what it’s worth I’m currently 19.5 stone. I am going to be an Ironman